Which addiction is better..YOURS or MINE?

Okay first things first..What is addiction after all..all this good bad pretty ugly right wrong..everything altogether doesn't give me the least idea about addiction..it just gives me one idea..n that is CONFUSION..aarrggghhh!!!!! what's this?? Addiction..is it something that i cant stop doing like eating chocolates or smoking? or something that i just cant live without..like breathing or water or food (eh! that means necessity!) And does it even include people?? Ahh!! there you go! Big question!  "People". This small word we know disturbs all the balance in the world. It has even ruined my post. Now it'll change the whole direction of the thing I was gonna write about. But its okay. For sometimes in life "People" are more important than any other thing. And thats why I believe sometimes we get rid of our Addictions for the sake of the "People" we love. See, I somehow got connection between people and addiction(and even kind of created for you an illusion of going back to the real "science-like" topic).


So basically its like people make us their addict. Yes! Its True! They Do! Even WE, as People, Do this. Making other people addicted to us. I have even heard a close friend saying to me: "Mahn! You are Addiction!" And i felt like WOW! Am I! Can I Be? And the feeling was ACTUALLY Good! I felt good being an addiction. So if I were a cigarette or a chocolate, I could have said: "I felt like a person's 3rd cigarette in a row!" or "I felt like the last bite given to a Real Chocolate Addict" :)


So the thing I wanna say is even though people hurt you the most, they make you cry, they make you sad and whatever not, some of them become just too special to care about all this when it comes to loving them. And no matter what the relation is, the question of good bad pretty ugly right wrong never comes into consideration when it comes to these very few people. So basically, the People addiction has 3 differences compared to Chocolate addiction and Cigarette addiction: One, It doesn't give Smoke(or smell, of course); Two, it doesn't com in 75, 85 and 90% darks; Three, It doesn't take the half of your salary.


What? Expected some serious three points or something? or a serious discussion on this topic? Well, I'm Addicted to not being serious. (:wink) See, addiction is everywhere. And its definitely not easy to leave, like people addiction. So next time when you force some close one to quit something quickly, remember its not easy, its difficult, as difficult as it is to leave them. Cuz they're the ones love like your life, like your addiction. Understand, It Takes Time. And this, I wrote for my addictions, whom i'd never want to part with. Hope I'm an addiction to them too :)

I Lost My Pink Pencil

I lost my Pink Pencil..I was so Happy after getting it that in the happiness of getting it i lost it..i put it somewhere so safely that i couldn't find it ever again..i know its still there..somewhere near me..its there but i just cant see it..cuz its kept safely somewhere in my house..i took help but no one could find it..I bought new pink pencils that look exactly like the old one..but they're not the same..

somethings are just so special that you cant replace them..no matter however hard you try..and this feeling carries the kind of emotions that cannot be expressed or shown with any smiley..now the pages of my sketchbook are filling up slowly..cuz the pencil isn't there..and other pencils cant just make me get what i wanna sketch..may be someday when i stop looking for it..IT finds ME..or it suddenly appears in front of me when i remove a piece of paper or a diary or just a dress..n see it lying there..just there..just like there..and feel like "why was it that i couldn't see it when i wanted it?" but then..i'll have it..it''ll be too late..but i'll still get it..it'll remind me of old memories..cuz it is there..i know it is there..somewhere near me..its around..my pink pencil..

When I need to talk, I need to talk..even if there's nobody to listen to it..other than the chirping birds..

Yeah right! Its 0500 in the morning. And this time can be the best time or the worst time for the same person. The only thing that makes a difference is that whether you have gotten up at this time or you are waiting for your eyes to drop down. The latter is a bit difficult, because its just like you're trying to stop your brain from working at the wrong time (cuz it basically doesn't usually work when it needs to) and at the same time also scolding the sleep to not come at the right time. But just like people, sometimes sleep does this, cuz just like people, sleep also has the habit of getting late for office. And sometimes People includes me too. :)


Right now its just like "Wow! Am i Up just to write about something like How to spend a sleepless night or how to not feel bad when the birds have started chirping and you haven't yet fallen asleep" I just wish I could sleep in time and had gotten up right now and was getting ready for a Jog or a Morning Walk. I wonder how different would this Chirping of Birds in the Morning seem to me..Would it even HAVE BEEN different or am I not liking it just because I'm not a Morning Person? And reaching to which of the above two conclusions would make me Happier? Time for me to think. See, I've once more found a thing worthy enough to think about at 0520 in the morning when i haven't been able to sleep (the reason of which was also thinking, for that matter) and a reason good enough to not sleep (Which is Thinking, for that matter).


So i guess my conclusion for this post is that its a vicious circle. Cuz as a matter of fact, if you keep thinking you cant sleep and if you cant sleep you keep thinking, and for that matter, even thinking about not thinking anymore works well. Laugh, if you're reading this at 5 am yourself.
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What matters to me..The Day or the Way?

Its 17th..Its April..Its THE Season..the one i used to love when i was in THE place..in THE time..with THE people..now I'm at some oTHEr place..in some oTHEr time..with some oTHEr people..it has all changed and THIS season is not THE season anymore..its just another day..Sunday, the April 17th..and Sunday, the April 17th doesn't matter anymore..miss THE 107th day of THE year..