There are times in life when you don't know if you are happy or sad. At these times, smiling doesn't seem fit and crying, my friend, isn't an easy job. Its not anger that you can just vent out on someone or something, there's no good news to share, no sadness to cry over, no happiness to get mad about. Its just that uneasy feeling that conveniently fills your heart and soul.
All slow or deep music makes you sad and all new and happy music is unenjoyable to you. All efforts you put into something for being happy go in vain. You scroll the call list a hundred times to make up your mind to call some friend and feel good. But, end up not calling anyone and just going to bed with music in your ears and fall asleep just to see the strangest of dreams involving strangest of activities and farthest of people.
The question is what do we want? When we're crying we want to smile, when we're smiling we want to laugh, when we laugh too much, again we cry, then we want peace. At times we feel like laughing and crying at the same time. when we are alone we want someone to be there. When we are with people we can't breath. Standing in a long queue for getting something you always wanted and when there's only one person left before its your turn you move out of the queue not wanting it. Its like opening the lock of your house at night coming back tired and feeling lonely as ever, feeling as if you never wanted to do this. At other times you feel like you always wanted to live the loner's life.
You feel like talking to someone, dial a close one's number and disconnect even before it rings. Miss people but never gather the strength to tell them that you feel like crying when they leave you and go. You want them to always be there with you. Yes! i'm selfish. But this is who I am. I want everything. May be I failed every time I tried to make them happy, at least i tried.
Its the hardest when you feel so many things and get entangled. don't know where to go, what to do, whom to turn to. There is a long way in from of you but you don't know if you wanna walk on it or just stare at it or turn around and go back.
Its hard to find an end to your feelings and when you can't write anymore because tears have blocked your view, you have to borrow lines from someone else. And because its necessary to stop the flow at the point of time when it starts becoming uncontrollable, I did it.
You feel like talking to someone, dial a close one's number and disconnect even before it rings. Miss people but never gather the strength to tell them that you feel like crying when they leave you and go. You want them to always be there with you. Yes! i'm selfish. But this is who I am. I want everything. May be I failed every time I tried to make them happy, at least i tried.
Its the hardest when you feel so many things and get entangled. don't know where to go, what to do, whom to turn to. There is a long way in from of you but you don't know if you wanna walk on it or just stare at it or turn around and go back.
Its hard to find an end to your feelings and when you can't write anymore because tears have blocked your view, you have to borrow lines from someone else. And because its necessary to stop the flow at the point of time when it starts becoming uncontrollable, I did it.
Kab se dhoondh raha khud ko, milta hi nahin hoon,
Aisa lagta hai main chhipa nahin, laapata hoon..
Perhaps YOU must have not noticed this, while YOU were in the flow of writing this article. The biggest beauty of this article is that the number of "YOU's" and the number of "WE's" are much greater as compared to number of "I's". This is what relate's to the reader, this is what creates interest in any genuine reader. Dale Carnegie, the great author, philosopher always used this technique. It's good for any writer if this skill comes out naturally from him/her.
ReplyDeleteYes, there are neutral moments in life. They occur many times these days. And even I don't have an answer. But the instances mentioned here are same with everybody. Everybody cuts the call before the bell rings.
The idea of placing the image in the mid article and then adding a hindi couplet in the end shows how nicely and piece by piece "YOU" crafted this article.