S.T.R.A.N.G.E. Isn't it?

Sometimes I think why we do whatever we do? Why all this effort? Why all this pain? Why all this unnecessary effort when everything is ultimately going to end, and there's a permanent solution to all these temporary problems? When in the end, everything I going to become one thing, why do we run after all those things that are pointless? Happiness, sadness, life and death, good and bad, rich and poor, love and hate, marriage and divorce, pizza and sandwich, coffee and chocolates, jealousy, jobs, salary, fights, colleagues and bosses, promotions and demotions, winning and losing, black and white, full and empty.

I think it can be safely said that nobody belongs to nobody. How is it that while we are all sent by god for some specific purpose, we keep planning our own lives? Are we ever going to get what we want? And even if we get it, are we going to forever possess it? What is the use of smiling or crying or studying or earning or loving or hating or respecting or caring or anything else if it is finally not going to matter? And what if all this is just a story written and being narrated by GOD and whatever we do or think is pre determined by him and what if no matter whatever we say or how we justify whatever we do or say all this is a dream and it suddenly ends one day and nothing else matters?

Are we ever going to know what happens after life ends? I have once had a very long discussion over this strange question with a dear one. And there was no conclusion, as we ended up saying its a very weird thing to talk about. But it is worth thinking. Because many a times we sacrifice our happiness just for the sake of what others will feel or think of us. At times we don't do things that could have made us happy or satisfied only because we think  its not right. If everything is so clearly wrong or right, why do we never get to reach perfection? And if we know whatever we do has two sides, one wrong and one right, one good and one bad, why don't we simply do the good thing and do ourselves the favour of always being and keeping others happy? 

And if one does everything only for his own happiness and convenience its known as selfishness. How come there are numerous classes and castes and cities and countries and continents and tickets are sold in order to travel from one place to another and why it is not done free of cost as a service to each other by us if we all are a part of the ultimate soul, GOD, and are finally going to meet and merge within that eternal soul and none of this is going to matter in the end?

I know there is no answer to these odd and silly questions but there is something called afterlife and I believe in it. But still, even after writing and pondering over all this for such a long time, all I'm going to do is go to my bed and think of what I'm going to do tomorrow, what I'm going to do in life, and what is going to happen in my future, and will hope my tomorrow is a happy day for me, and the question "What is beyond all this?" will suddenly seem like pointless to me, and of course it will all finally become just a thought which will only take physical form when we will actually see what's beyond all this, and I'll think "why I wrote whatever I wrote".

S.T.R.A.N.G.E. Isn't it?